abby vanduker, 20, oklahoma

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invisible children
charity: water
liberty in north korea

it’s the simple things: i love today. 

• woke up early to sunshine
• went to cha for a latte & reading time (steve jobs biography)
• snatched a $80 pullover for $10
• longest (1.5 mile) run around the neighbourhood since i stress fractured both of my calves
• drove to pops for sodas with my sister
• took a siesta with my puppy
• and now i’m getting ready for a castle/hot tub date. 

bye xxxx

zero two forty eight, and i just arrived home with a much clearer head than i left with.

it’s an insignificant factor to me nowadays, but really, i’m appreciative that i’ve learned to be okay with slipping out from mourning under the covers of my uncomfortable bed, tug a brush through my forever messy hair, toss on clothing, and speed down country roads breathing down nicotine to slow my nervous shakes for coffee with a wonderful man, past midnight and at a moment’s notice. well, my coffee and his omelette, to be precise.

but i am just so tired, despite the pot of coffee i emptied alone.
losing the one you love must be the most exhausting nonphysical thing in existence.

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never gonna leave this bed (acoustic) by maroon 5

“you push me, i don’t have the strength to resist or control you. so take me down, take me down. you hurt me, but do i deserve this? you make me so nervous, calm me down, calm me down.”