abby vanduker, 20, oklahoma

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invisible children
charity: water
liberty in north korea

• i’m uncertain if i’m stressing more about basketball tickets or final exams
• my body has apparently figured out it’s winter time and, in turn, i want to eat everything.
• …fire department family dinner tonight
• le langue français ferait ma tête explose si je continue mes études pour pas plus de temps.
• after wednesday, i will have officially survived another semester
• hoping i really do enjoy poli sci classes next semester, if not it’s back to the drawing board
• …is there a major and career field for listening to music, speaking french, watching basketball, running, and drinking coffee? 
• i have severe wanderlust every day these days.
• chris’ grandfather told me happy birthday, and it’s made me so…warm. blessed.
• so many people i love will be here within a month, and thinking about that makes me want to bounce off all of the walls
• i am trying to remember to not let sickness own me, but to own it
• i think i’m going to go cook waffles
• everything and nothing.

ice between my teeth. lengthy drives to nowhere in particular. the few memories of granny I still hold. painting my finger-nails. the words of ben gibbard and william shakespeare. the smell of coffee. nortriptyline. baking or cooking something, even if I don’t consume it. a boy in southern texas with oklahoma on his body. reading a book, any book. parting with the interwebs. my great-grandmother. the smell of wine. a warm mug full of mint tea with entirely too much honey. taco bell. accelerating with the pedal to the floorboard. oliver. a cabin in the rockies. the words of a cemetery groundskeeper.

It’s nights like these I must remember what I have to always come back to.

from At the Bottom of Everything by Bright Eyes